drought

 

drought

He said: To look hard at something, to look through it, is to transform it,

convert it into something beyond itself, to give it grace.

& I want to say: maybe, did you ever think, it already had 

grace?  & it was by its grace it made itself seen?

 

despite the ban

the neighbor has flames

ten or more feet

above his barrel cage.

fevered, the heat is all

his fuel has ever waited for: the fallen

then sawn or chopped logs

being, finally, released to seed,

defeated, & for every neighbor

with an eye or a nose to come to

know his own ignorance in matters

like this.

 

drought and fire are frenemies.

all that tinder and all it takes

is one itch.  at first the tongue

is tentative, like from the lips

of prey, like the does I saw

a few hours ago, gnawing

on the October goldenrod.  

their reach and consumption

is like kissing

velvet.  seemingly brief.  a lick.

a sideswipe jaw-gnaw.

& they’re so coated to their own

 

spruce & ash bark background,

they fall in, & the pines receive

them openmouthed, 

all those midas sprills

turning the green grass gold.

or else they’re close to the reclining

ferns, their toothy leafs of rust.

Healthy enough, those does,

coming up on November.  But,

 

& this is where most don’t

know drought: hunger is

under the tongue of all of this:

a sleeper not a sleeper, easy to,

seemingly, keep, all those

feet away, easy to stop

seeing them once they’ve lain

unafraid in the blonding

 

grasses.  Trained decay.  Dry

as June hay.  Ok.  I’ll say

I’m afraid for them.  Their waiting.

The dry head of the hydrangea

thin as bible paper.  & all that

grass, & the man in his chair

watching his fire climb,

ig(kn)knighted, delighted, &

all those piles & piles of pine

needles besides.

 

*quote from "Looking Around III" Charles Wright

 

 

Fitting

 

Fitting

 

 

Memory
Daniel Chester French

 

 

After coming to the end of A Truce

That is Not Peace

I went on line & bought

            the seven chakras,

a chain for wearing each

            of them and a peace-

ful spinner ring.  For being

            at my job for twenty years

they gave me a thousand

            dollars, which Toms says,

bumped me up to

            the next tax backet & so

in reality I received

            seven hundred.  Three

of the thousand was

            gleaned for tax.  So.

Holding on to the twenty

            years & not the thousand

bucks I thought

            all those colors, all those

ways to make it

            peaceful I’ll string them along

my neck one day, one day one day & so

            on a dat at a time

Tell Me

 

Tell Me

 

It’s an awkward truth that I cannot help observing

and noticing things even in the most terrible moments.

                        Yiyun Li

                        Things in Nature Merely Grow

 

At what moment does the river give over

to the cold, and at what moment does it lift

its rhythm to the wind waving over it

& surrender, & in surrendering offer drops

 

of itself as sacrifice, & what drops volunteer

or what drops are drafted to the task of becoming

made invisible by light & by

that same light & after a certain encampment

 

fall again but different entirely, irrevocably

changed, or not at all, because how can it be, the same

water after all it’s literally been through and told to do.

At what moment, because rivers are memory,

 

does the body of it, remembering, say not now,

not this time, & pause to get hold of itself, to get

solid the way all bodies get solid from the very

start, a splitting but not a splitting, of its cell-f,

 

a selvedge edge now, at that moment, becoming ice

that rimes the banks with the seasons in its surface,

the banks and bottom a hollow consolation for August,

when the mud was caked & shattered & the rain,

 

when it finally fell, rose straight up again, the way

any inflated thing would do, bouncing on the hard

unyielding shell of the groundit sped to, on the pottery

shard, on the shell of the just hatched snapping turtle 

 

camouflaged…

How Illuminate, Uncovering You

 

How Illuminate, Uncovering You  

 

 All love abhors habit.

                    Christian Wiman

                    My Bright Abyss: 

                                    Meditation of a Modern Believer

 

How today’s sun rises on yesterday’s labor,

how the now dug out stump slumps on the lip

of the incision I made into the crab

grass sod.  & then there’s the one that wouldn’t

budge, rebellious-wedged.  How more & more it is

being made naked again

 

plunge shovel plnge shovel grunt shovel

 

how once there must have been a structure:

a house or barn, something.  How what I’m hauling

up is just the broke stone.  Oh but yesterday, how

a splinter, a sliver of window glass, somewhere near

that cemented dead elm.  Once

an elm

                        plunge shovel plunge shovel grunt shovel

 

always?  How Gerry dug into the buried bark, or tried

to.  How it was hard hard hard.  How it was hard as Egypitan

brickwork.  How the spade blade made a great thwang

and how later I’d remember I saw sparks speak. . .  

how the teeth were meeting iron. How one nail, stoppered

all these years

 

                        plunge hammer plunge shove grunt shovel

 

and met, well, tooth and nail.  How it was the fleetingist

of lights.  Tinder’s friction, tipped. How it resembled the lightning

bugs up near the gone-by mountain

laurel, those now spent flowers a still branch-gripped bouquet

in the slight alcove of the oak it was

cultivated in. 

 

                        plunge shovel plunge shovel grunt shovel

 

 

 

 

 

 

How I saw them in their linen-like winding sheet,

their rag & bone man hold, their fisted grip that will get them

through to near a year from now, the shoulders

of those oaks holding the snow,

their growth, seed & leaf, wind pillaged,

crow stole, and all those suns long ago shone,

 

                        plunge come up! plunge shovel grunt shovel

 

& that open hole, half an acre or so over

there, how it is exhumed again to its cellared parapets,

the light of day once more being squeezed

between pieces of granite that for the last hundred

fifty years, tally the elm rings, how they have hunkered

 

demolished long before I was born and worn,

dumped into its own cellar hole,  

 

shovel shovel shovel  of soil,

 

how with squirrel buried acorns championing

the purposely planted elm.  Mute. Rising blind into light.

Thirst

 

Thirst

 

I love the idea

don’t you

of cupping the water from the cauldron

after the night of rain

and the day of rain

and when the dark comes again

and as if the earth had opened its door

to view

the secrets briefly

that sort of dark that is a fragrance as well

and a perception, something like

the trust of a favor from one

to another and the other

not mucking it up 

sensing see the great cost

of it glowing against the broad

now clear now black sky

with its one close eye

that is open almost all the way

and this is where I like the idea

you’re still

with me I like the idea

of cupping my hands into the rain

barrel and letting the water rest

there long enough

& if I’m careful & calibrated

& you are at hand

to see it

the moon is

in the palms of me

& you lean in & whisk & wick the water into you

the way orchids do

& it becomes you

you who have the water and the moon

taken into you almost

forgive me my thirst, 

filling you

 

 

Arriving

 

 Arriving      

 

Such comfort in the bee

who, between the blooming

 

blooms, is seeking her sweet

gauzy drop of nearly

 

honey.  She is

homed here.  Didn’t the face

 

of the sun-

flower open for just this

 

moment with the bee,

this particular bee,

 

rich with her purses of pollen,

the dusts of thousands

 

of teachings stippling her

buzz and humming rise?

 

Tell me, isn’t the richness all the more

important because of her

 

needing to leave

the flower and take

 

on the risk of wind and being

heaved off course,

  

and doesn’t she survive because

of the pollen?  Watch this rising & falling

 

 / \

rising        

falling  

                     

                                   \ /

rising

falling

  

and see in it something very simple.

Feel it buzz.  Feel the buzz beginning

 

to rain on you, which when falling,

hear it? feel it?

 

sounds very much

like applause.

Thoughts, Stalks

 

Thoughts, Stalks

 

I see, maybe, the brief seep

of sunshine.  The world above

this roof opened and out

poured rain & her fast breathing

wind.  It blew

drops beyond the window

sill and onto my almost waking

face.  I’m sure I heard it

all falling but I was in

a place I rarely am and

dreaming – how cliché

to say I thought it was all

happening

there and not in the actual

outdoors above and below me where just

yesterday I was gleaning the garden

of its duff of winter

of the sawn down silver

grass reeds, their ten-foot

thin stick selves so like those great

blue heron legs I watch stalk

the water below the falls

so confident, yes? and the patient way

they make of standing…

anyway these reeds, this cane

is a jumble of some

abandoned game

of pick-up-sticks, or the semblance

of last year’s life sliding

down onto the bodies of last

year’s life, their deadness

clean & hollow & almost weightless,

a hundred or more in this bundle

and tens more bundles

to be hauled to the edge

of the property line to be

broken still more, to be lit (when

all this water stops falling)

and to be fed into the fire – this is

impermanence at her lengthiest

suspension: the debris gathered

after the sky quiets again

and the like the gleaners who come

through to sift the seeds, & the feet

of the wheat stalks yet are stepped

on and left alone to decompose

as the season marches, probes 

& sifts & spears & grows tall.