After Dusting a Bookshelf

 

In Daniel Chester French's Studio

After Dusting a Bookshelf

 

Tell me how long this small chocolate

egg has been perched on Robert

Lowell’s Collected Poems ready for the find,

sitting on his spine, edging his ladies’

man eye-

 

brow?  Missed. When? Last Easter?  Easter

before?  There was a time, when he was

manic, and maybe even between

manias, that he believed

in Easter, or in its least,

its implications, in the hours & days   

following the final slump, God's lungs giving up,

the criminal forgiven, the criminal

not, & the squeeze of each between.  Jesus seeking

what I can and will say every kid seeks

from their own

father: presence.  To not have to

 

say why have you

abandoned me?  It reminds me, and this is

a stretch of time and a context out of transition,

but bear with me,

to say I remember seeing,

& needing to believe in it

as a possibility, the first film I saw reeled

backwards.  Its end its beginning.

I wanted to believe I could live

backwards.  Become

new.  But...

And so.  This little egg

is sunk to gunk under its foil.  Lowell is

imipatiently unread, spine spread, 

his skunk unborn or slunk

off, or his Nantucket dead yet

living maybe.  And speaking

of living backwards, I see 

the fingers pinching this candy to place

 

and then forward: the three to five second delight

a tongue might need to light its ennui

to strike the foil of gold, God

has it been

years sitting there, tell me it has been

waiting unseen for at least

the length of time it takes to stumble

then sit in the confessional or the tomb

(they’re both the same, in some way)

ageless and out of date and say, breathless

bless me, please, bless me

Bouquet

 

 

Bouquet 

 

Earlier, before day, before day was made

day, I raised the shade to arrange

the bouquet of the birds’ of prey

feathers.  Alert in an barren bonsai

 

pot they reach easily east & to east’s

opposite.  & the smaller feathers barely scale

the rim.  I’ll confess I don’t know all

their names, but some, of course: crow;

 

broad tail hawk; turkey.  Eagle.  & the one

lone white, from my daughter’s costume

when she was an attending pre-K

angel at Jesus’ manger.  I thought: alive,

 

all these birds are solitary.  I thought: loosing

to lose one feather of the thousands they fly

with, this one isn’t going to be

missed, though if it still

 

had a consciousness it might miss: the wind,

the beak preening, the fanning out, fanning

in, the light, the coming on of dark

when the shade is after being

 

raised all day slowly drawn down

to the tips of the shaft and vane waiting maybe

for a February draught to resurrect the barbs

where some are split, where some were dried

 

wet & caked yet, & some, the angel one flanked

by all the rest, hide behind the falcon

                                                   & the count them:

one,  two, three

 

                                                   crow

Then She Said

 

Then She Said

“I have found favor in your sight, my lord,

for you have comforted me and indeed

have spoken kindly to your maidservant,

though I am not like one of your maidservants.”

                       

                        Ruth 2:13

such a meticulous glean

            the bee to her need

            her proboscis and the pollen powder

                                   

rising

            while inside the hollow

            halls of her body

            the soft offering she is

            withdrawing from the face

            of the echinacea begins

            its steady friendship

            quiet

            reliable

Relationships

 Relationships

            for Ishrat on her birthday –

 

Such comfort in the bee

who between the florets & petals

is seeking her sweet

transluscent drop of almost

honey.  Like she was

homed here.  Like the face of the sun

flower opened for just this

moment and the bee,

this bee,

heavy from her last

home – oh those pouches

of pollen – twin purses –

& isn’t the richness all the more

sweet in the leaving

the pollen rising / \ falling

                       

                          \ /

                        rising

                        falling

in something like applause

Pain-Gleaned

 Pain-gleaned

 

Pain-gleaned but there’s always a nerve

hiding behind the silence where quiet is

 

a hunted laboring mother giving in at last

then slipping to the same world her still-

 

born baby has slipt to.  Moving forward

she sleeps & the piece

 

                                    of her who made

the baby & brought it to term only

 

to have to paw through the gaul of the after

birth searching for the stone

 

that was thrown at her glass castle

finds nothing but immensity nothing

 

but layers & layers of drapes of immensity

which being the seamstress she now is

 

she stitches together to hang

pleated & neat in the house she lives in

 

now at glow in the dark but a glow nobody

being outside that dark could ever imagine being

 

illuminated 

Imagine: In the Yellow House, Arles

 

Imagine: In the Yellow House, Arles

 

Yesterday’s replica was of Van Gogh’s

Arles bedroom.  The cups.  The rumpled

red bed-

            covering the almost

                        floating above angle the viewer

                        needs to appreciate

                        standing to see

                                    it all falling some-

                                    how down

            hill.  (it seems the bedroom

                        wasn’t plumb, he’d said

                        in a letter to Theo)

 

                                    but to see it

                                    the way Vincent saw

 

to paint it perspectively

            waiting for people

            to sit to sleep against the edge

            of the wall, the straw sun

            hat hung behind the head

            board next to the frumpy paint clustered

            frocks but oh the room is so…

 

                                    See?!

                        RED! & BLUE & LIVINGLY

                                    neat!

 

unrumpled cover.  In the painting

there’s room for two:

 

            two chairs

            two pillows

            two then two paintings & one

                        where two might

                                    walk, grasping each other, through to the trees.